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Mom: "You're lieing to me."
Me: "I-I'm not!"
And it's true, I havn't lied to my mom, but she beleives so.
So the end result I cried my eyes out till the point of exhaustion where I passed out holding a knife to my throat.
My intentions, well, I'm not even go into detail. I almost overdosed because I've officially given up.
I can't stand not knowing what is going on. Why would I even want to lie to my mom? She's crushed me to nothing, she's lowered me to nothing. So I wouldn't lie.
I don't want to disapoint people, you guys are my family and that's why I try so desperatly to not allow myself to be washed into darkness. But the darkness, it comes to me like a tsunami. I can no longer out run it so that is why, I've given up.
But don't worry, I'll still be around because I realize that each of you guys care. but to me the words that I read, they seem like nothing.
And....ADFKLFDFOLEROERPWE
I'm so sorry, I apologize to you all for everything. I'm soo sooo sooo soooooo sooooo sorry...:C
Me: "I-I'm not!"
And it's true, I havn't lied to my mom, but she beleives so.
So the end result I cried my eyes out till the point of exhaustion where I passed out holding a knife to my throat.
My intentions, well, I'm not even go into detail. I almost overdosed because I've officially given up.
I can't stand not knowing what is going on. Why would I even want to lie to my mom? She's crushed me to nothing, she's lowered me to nothing. So I wouldn't lie.
I don't want to disapoint people, you guys are my family and that's why I try so desperatly to not allow myself to be washed into darkness. But the darkness, it comes to me like a tsunami. I can no longer out run it so that is why, I've given up.
But don't worry, I'll still be around because I realize that each of you guys care. but to me the words that I read, they seem like nothing.
And....ADFKLFDFOLEROERPWE
I'm so sorry, I apologize to you all for everything. I'm soo sooo sooo soooooo sooooo sorry...:C
IM BACK BITCHEZ
I do not even know if anyone really is still expecting anything, if so note me. This is so comfusing but im back. Ive had a LOT of shit come up so i have no reasons or excuses but im sorry to everyone i have hurt.
Im working now to catch up on things i owe.
Once again im sorry.
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I've decided that due to some very horrible issues popping up. I will be working on transferring art and writings to a new account I'll be making up.
There has been too much fucking bullshit happening and whatnot that I need to start anew.
I'll keep it updated and then I will transfer stuff over. I will be completing work I owe to so no worries
I Don't Know How to Make a Journal so Here LOL
Shit, wow! Been gone for so long and I apologize.
I'm unreliable and a horrible friend.
I owe a couple things to some people and I know I said I will get it done and I have not finished it I am sorry.
I've been in and out of the hospitals. I been extremely ill as well and so weak I have been unable to do jack shit. But I'm better now and so I will be getting this done for you!
It's just in time for Christmas so this will be the terribly late Christmas gifts.
From now on if I say I am doing something I fucking mean it and once again I'm a horrible friend and I'm sorry. My life just has been hell :/
Anyways I don't know how this site wor
#hospitaltrip
Went to the hospital cos I basically had a heart attack. Actually turns out when your heart gets so broken it causes what's like a heart attack but not really.
I almost died a broken heart.
Now I have cut myself up and I feel bad.
The first time since I cut that it hurts as much as my heart does.
But yeah it was scary, by mind went fuzzy, I felt tingles then numbness up my arms and legs, my heart actually made a lunging pain in my chest and it felt like it actually tried to jump out of my chest before it suddenly sunk to my intestines :O
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Be an arrow, you might feel like life is pulling and holding you back... but it's only because it's going to launch you into something great! We really care about you, and we want you to be safe ... but you're not safe there with her.
Are there any relatives or neighbors you could stay with?